Anyone who has known me for long probably knows change is not my favorite thing. Once change is here, I try to welcome it. But the anticipation of things changing - particularly with large, life changes - just about kills me. Until now. Yesterday I made a solid decision to change my life - and I am more excited than scared or sad. Progress!
For months now I've been trying to figure out what to do and where to go next. I have known my time in Provo was coming to an end, but didn't know what to do next. And as much as I dislike change, I know it's good for me, and I know I need it.
While staying where I'm at is comfortable, it isn't always best. And to be honest, it isn't even fun anymore. Provo isn't teaching me anything anymore. I'm just ready to be done with this place and out of here. I've loved my 4 years here, but it's time to move somewhere new.
I've been waiting for my life to get better, and I've been doing all I can to make it better. But the truth is while Provo has given me some amazing and unforgettable memories and friends, it's also been the setting for the hardest, darkest and saddest times of my entire life. And I'm ready to be done with that.
Here's to change! And to knowing everything will be okay.